Hello, I really badly need some advice about whether or not to reach out to an ex boyfriend. I meet my ex around 14 months ago in Paris. We fell madly in love and then about 7 months ago, he told me he cheated on me. He had gotten another girl pregnant. He then proceed to leave me in Paris and went on a 3 month backpacking trip to Asia so he "wouldn't deal with me". He sounds like an ass I know. He kind of is. But he did really love me and I really loved him. The past couple months have been very hard and I had a lot of anxiety in the beginning. Now it has subsided by I can't let him go no matter how hard I try. We haven't talked since May but I still think about him everyday and I still really love him. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should reach out. We were on slightly good terms when he left for Asia but then we got in a fight over the phone and left everything very messy. There are a lot of things unsaid and alot of questions were left unanswered. I thought I would have moved on by now but I haven't and I don't really know how to go on thinking about him like this without reaching out. Please give me some advice!!