I have never paid for sex (outside of the traditional sense of course) and while not directly opposed to the industry itself, I have always been morally concerned with whether the women involved are either forced by someone to work in the industry or tricked into it through drug addictions, financial debts etc which is why I have never even considered it before. However, more recently I have actually been considering it for the first time as a possibility. I unfortunately have been alone for what is now becoming a stupid amount of time since my previous relationship and the only woman I have met since who was finally able to take my mind off my ex-girlfriend is married and is now my best friend. Unfortunately I have fallen for her and although she is definitely attracted to me, neither of us wish to damage her marriage so we haven't pursued anything further. - But this has put me in a difficult situation. I went out with a woman not too long ago in the hope of pursuing something with someone new (and who obviously is single and available). We both had a good night and everything seemed to be going well, but when I closed my eyes and was about to lean in to kiss her all I could see was the face of my married friend - I just couldn't go through with it. I tried again later that night but exactly the same thing happened again. Despite my intentions my brain was continually insisting on pretending that this girl was actually my best friend instead. The thought of my first kiss in years being with a genuinely decent girl while I'm pretending that she is someone else was (and is) horrible to me and I worry that if things actually progress into the bedroom that my brain will continue the charade. Plus this girl is really a nice person and seems to genuinely like me so it feels completely selfish and unfair to do that to her knowingly - she doesn't deserve that. Also if something potentially does develop between us I can't imagine a more horrible or dishonest way for a relationship to start. I have been thinking that perhaps I could find a working girl who has some similar physical characteristics as my best friend that I could pay her to 'play a role' for me - which is technically very similar to what they actually do for a living. This way perhaps I will be able to get this fantasy of sleeping with my married friend out of my system. I realise that this is probably a stupid solution and probably wont work, but if my mind is insisting on pretending to be with someone else I would prefer it to be with someone who doesn't mind me pretending, rather than a nice girl who deserves a lot better. So my question is.............is paying for sex always wrong?