I'm so lost despite really trying to be happy again after the loss of my husband several years ago. I feel myself giving up on life because it's been 1 challenge after another, including involving the health of my adult children. I don't want to seem so depressed in front of my kids because they get really upset and I don't want them to give up on happiness either but the truth of the matter is we are all having difficulty "moving on". I see some of my widow friends moving in with their boyfriends, getting engaged and some getting married after only a few years. I'm a real relationship person and I seek that so much. I've tried and looked everywhere and I feel so "empty" although in a few relationships I've had the men profess their love to me. I see myself getting older and older (I'm already 60) and although I've always been an optimistic person, I just can't seem to shake this feeling. I've been in therapy since my husband's demise, to no avail (although I think it helps me to some extent). The closest thing I have right now in terms of a relationship is a man I've known many years, dated for several years (on and off) and while I'm generally happy spending time with him and we do have chemistry, etc.; both he and I want more (to live together and maybe marry) BUT - he only lives off of social security and can't seem to find a part time job to put himself in a more stable financial situation (which he understands I absolutely need from a partner at this point in my life, especially one I may live with). My other relationship was with a man who said he loved me and he was stable in every way, but the sex was not what I considered "good" and the chemistry for me was minimal (but not for him, he said). My kids really like this 2nd man and for that reason, I kept on trying but I'm pretty tired of all of it. Basically, I'm lost and in many ways, I feel like I'm done with life and despite people always telling me, "There's someone out there for you", I really don't believe that anymore, at least not for me. I feel like a failure and maybe just focusing my life on my job and my kids only; although I know that will be really lonely as the years go by. Does anyone have a similar experience? Thanks for reading this and hopefully, you can help.