I've never been with anyone sexually before (or just dating anyone) and I don't have anyone in my life that I'm close with or interested in. I desire an intimate relationship/friendship and I don't think that will happen any time soon. This paired with my hormones from being a young adult male, is making me have strong sexual thoughts. I have even been having gay thoughts about hooking up with some stranger online just to use him for sex. The idea of someone desiring me is such a big turn on for me and not having someone in my life who fills that role, just makes me want it even more. I don't want to act on my thoughts (especially the gay thoughts since I'm straight and I would feel bad about it) but I'm getting more desperate each day. I feel like just hooking up with someone won't fix anything, but I don't know for sure since I haven't experienced that. What do I do with these thoughts and desires?