Won’t have unprotected sex or do oral

Discussion in 'Sex Advice' started by unknown21, Dec 13, 2017.

  1. unknown21

    unknown21 New Member

    I’m a 40 year old male who has been in love with a certain female since high school.

    I hadn’t seen her in a few years but still thought of her occasionally.

    3 years ago she came to work at the same company I work for. We became close friends, with her still not knowing how I felt. She was married with two kids.

    We talked a lot, about life in general, family, weather etc etc...

    Again, she’s been my dream girl for 15 + years. But I never mentioned it to her.

    During one of our talks , it turned to sex, likes dislikes and so on.

    She named a lot of people she had slept with in high school, some I know some I didn’t.

    But, one particular one was my best friend.
    Fast forward a few months and she’s divorced.

    She showed interest in me, and I was delighted!! Like a dream come true, finally getting the one I’ve always wanted!
    After going out a few times, one night it appeared sex was imminent, but, my mind went back to her saying who all she slept with and I couldn’t do it !
    I wanted to, but my mind wouldn’t let me.

    I tried telling her but she was hurt, upset and confused.

    I can’t have sex with her because of it, let alone be with her in a relationship. There’s no way in hell I’d ever get past her being with him.

    Anyone else ever feel this way ?

    I have harsh rules on sex, I know that.
    I’ve never done oral on anyone due to not wanting my mouth where someone had their dick.

    And I’ve never had unprotected sex.

    But for some reason I can’t even do her with a condom.

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